This speaks so loudly to me. So often I am sure God is telling me to do something. I’m on fire about it, full of excitement and energy around it...even if it scares me. I feed off the nearness of God in it...
...until some time passes. I get in my head. Satan gets in my head. I start to doubt...that God really wanted me to do it, that I even can do it, that I have time to do it. My fire around it is gone when I place it all on myself and lose that connection to God over it. I want to dig up those freshly planted seeds and toss them. Ugh!
God, if something is from You, help me to cling to it; to water it and watch it grow, no matter how slow and scary it feels.