I read things like this and think, “really?”
“You are walking with Jesus, watching Him heal, hearing Him speak, seeing the winds and waves submit to His authority...and THIS is what you are talking about amongst yourselves.”
I like to think if I was around the physical, human Jesus, I would be more pure, my sins more suppressed in the awe of His presence.
But this shows me that really I wouldn’t. It would be no different than how I behave with the spirit person of God inside of me.
I have all this power and authority and counsel within me at my disposal in the form of the Holy Spirit. I have God’s word and truth at my fingertips...and instead I tend to follow my flesh, arguing for ME instead of praising HIM.
Thankfully, God’s reaction to me isn’t the same as mine to the disciples, “really, Joani?”
Instead He loves me and welcomes me closer to Him, forgiving me over and over, having patience with me as I acknowledge my sins and seek to live more for Him.