Like most days, the @myutmost devo today has been rolling around my mind all day. I regularly pray for God to give me discernment and direction, and then the faith and courage to be obedient. All good, I think. But the truth is, I’m always looking for the step after the abiding. The “what’s in it for me” part. I know all the right words to say, but how does my heart look?
If I try to be last in the hopes of the reward to be first, am I not really just trying to be first, but through a different avenue?
If I say the “salvation prayer” to avoid hell, but I have no interest in a relationship with God, will I even be satisfied in heaven?
What if I keep praying and seeking a big plan and big purpose, but God just wants me to seek Him. Will that be enough?
Is my desire to glorify God or get something for me?
God, I am a mess without You. Change my heart and desires. Help my heart catch up with my mind and what I know to be true satisfaction in You alone.