I used to think of worship songs as the warm-up for “real church” or background music while we wait for the latecomers. Something changed at some point and I saw it rightfully as the way to prepare to meet our God; to show my gratitude and love for Him; to prepare my heart. I started to pray that I would be emptied of me — my pride, my to-do lists, my self-righteousness— and be filled with the Holy Spirit; open to all He has for me and all in to worship Him. I pay close attention to every lyric, carefully chosen to match the message.
Here’s the problem...I am a wreck at church! Please tell me I’m not alone. I literally sit in church and pray that God keeps me from crying as I am so moved by His presence. I grip my hands together and sometimes press my fingernails into my hands to keep from crying...all the while thinking, “I’m squashing the spirit I just prayed to show up. What is wrong with me?”